wow! what an exciting day today!
day 2 of the worship symposium! learnt alot abt worship! oh my gosh.. i know my weakness in worship leading now i guess...
mainly, i need to
-strengthen my knowledge of the Word, so i can relate the Word to the songs God chose for the worship sessions, thus i can edify the congregation or emphasize the points God wants me to share thru the songs thru the scripture.
-watch my emotional gauge, so as to clearly express my love for God,as well as to control my negative emotions.
learnt dynamics for a worship team.. hehheh.. next time will play around with diff styles.. and learn how to be an effective worship music leader/music director.. of cos must pray and see if within God's plans la..
ended the day off with an excellent worship. excellent not so much cos of the band, but cos it was a first for a change of my heart, a yearning for Him that i've not tasted in such a long time.. so so long in fact.
a verse that spoke quite a bit.. thanks cindy for that verse aye? good thing i read this before my phone died from a lack of power juice in the batt la.
Isaiah 55:8-9"My thoughts are completely different from yours," says the Lord. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."
this verse sets an understanding to my current situation, and it released an expression of trust to God, affirmation and acceptance to the situation.. its for our good!
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oh... had a call from my camp informing me of a recce for the last military exercise for me.. its tml! so scrambled to find my camp pass... oh man.. cant find it.. but some how i got a sense of peace la.. find it or not, i'll entrust to God.. please pray that i'll find it people.. many thanks!
while looking for the camp pass, i happened to come across some postcards she wrote to me.. was really sweet words. i believe at that time she meant it la. deep inside i still hopes she still means that =P. it really hurts to read it, but it was a friendship that we shared.. and love if i may boldly call it.. to answer one of your postcards, "866". well, wont do me good reminiscensing too much. im still hoping perhaps, but not clinging on to anything.. hmm..clingling to God, yes.
i would like to say that my "go" phrase is "move on". but my doors arent closed! changed my definitions cos they were too absolute.. if absolute, i'll be just limiting God... hmm.. i hope that at least the eventuality that i really want, is what God wants for me too..
BUT,only when i find i can love God first and everything else 2nd(including each other..this was wat we decided on tog when we got together la), will i try to woo her again.. (i hope by then it wont be too late..)
meanwhile, i'll just cont to pray for her and family, and esp my own family.. prayer requests here pple..mom's having a swell in her throat(pray its nothing serious), and grama's getting weaker due health(strength to overcome lies from mr D.Evil), bro's unchurched(pray for his meeting with God again), dad for strength to lead this now chaotic family.. me, strength to be my family's pillar both spiritually, mentally, and physically.
steph, thanks for the morale booster hahas! i'll try again when the time is right. see reference in
bold.
i hope both God and her will gimme that chance ^_^
ooooh... i see optimism here...
new day, here i come!
oh oh oh.. back to the camp pass hunt... >_<
