ecc 3:1-15
"there is a time for everything,
a season for every activuity under heaven.
a time to be born and a time to die
a time to plant and a time to harvest
a time to kill and a time to heal
a time to tear down and a time to rebuild
a time to cry and a time to laugh
a time to grieve and a time to dance
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones
a time to embrace and a time to turn away
a time to search and a time to lose
a time to keep and time to throw away
a time to tear and a time to mend
a time to be quiet and a time to speak up
a time to love and a time to hate
a time for war and a time for peace
what do people really get for all their hard work? i have thought about this with connection with the various kinds of works God has given people to do. God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the hearts of man, but even so, people cannot se the entire scope of God's works from begginning to end. so i concluded that there is nothing better for people to be happy and enjoy themselves as long as they can. and people should eat and drink and enjoy the frruits of their labour, for these are gifts from God.
and i know that what ever God does is final. nothing can be taken or added to it or taken from it. God's purpose in this is that people should fear Him. whatever exists today and what ever will exist in the future has already existed in the past. for God calls each event back in its turn."
now is my time to:
a time to be REborn(renew myself in Christ)
a time to REplant(myself in Him from scratch)
a time to heal(my wounds)
a time to rebuild(my faith)
a time to cry(to be broken in Him)
a time to grieve(to know what i've lost and obtain new direction)
a time to scatter stones(break my weak foundation, and rebuild anew)
a time to turn away(from my old life(bad things/habits), and walk towards light)
a time to search(for myself in God)
a time to throw away(to discard the idols in my life)
a time to mend(relationships)
a time to be quiet(to shut the hell up and listen to Him, also to work on the things i say to her that pushes her away)
a time to love(find Jesus as my first love, esp for my family, friends, lover)
a time for peace(to have a peace of mind, receive JOY from the Lord)
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i was going thru a phase that made me feel i had to "go away".
just yesterday, gerald boon, ben and rena, talked to me and emphasised that i cannot be alone.
ecc4:7-12 says something that smacked me good.
ecc4:7-12
"i observed yet another example of meaningless in our world. this is a case of a man who is all alone, without a child or a brother, yet who works hard to gain as much wealth as he can. but then he asks himself,"who am i working for?" why am i giving up so much pleasure now?" it is all so meaningless and depressing.
two people can accomplish more than twice as much one; they get a better return for their labour. if one person falls, the other can reach out and help. but people who are alone when they fall are in real trouble. and on a cold night, *
two under the same blanket can gain warmth from each other. but how can one be warm alone? a person standing can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back to back and conquer. three are even better, for a triple braided cord is not easily broken."
when i was in the army, i chose to be alone, and see where it brought me?
i had God and her to "*
warm myself up" then, but i chose to be alone. chose to play games to get away.
a loner's escape.
upon coming out of it, i realised it takes two to work it out, but she wasnt tuned in to it. but i guess God's using this break up to give us a
break. its hard, but its a whole learning experience.
even now i go thru this "i need to go away" phase, i realised its wrong. im doing the same thing i did when i was in the army. without her, i can still find company to stand back to back with me. i hope she does so too. that she wont do as i did and stand alone. be it the youth or leaders or friends.
thanks to my family and friends who are willing to stand with us back to back. lets fight together.
i do hope one day, God willing, she'd be willing to be the one who'll watch my back again, and i hers.
