wow.. God is good..
been a long time since i lead worship..
long time away from youth service cos of National Day Parade 2006 commitments..
but im back!
am going thru a lil reshuffling in life, a lil reorg, a lil redefining who i am..
esp these few days..
felt very unconfident due to friday nights events.. kinda pissed her off i think..
but now that i think back, Mr D.Evil prob made me go awry due to the lies he planted in my head. XXXXX, i apologise again.
before jamming rena took us thru a sermon-on-a-cd, andgot us to reflect what we learnt..
i guess it was really timely what the speaker said.
my take-home-lesson was that, worship to God is not determined by our feelings, but by what we want God to feel when we worship. whether we give a half hearted worship or a whole hearted worship.
then during jammin, i noticed she was really patient to one of our great upcoming guitarists, but somehow she'd lost her patience with me over time when we were tog.. ow! that got me a lil down, and i kept hitting the chords wrong.. %#&*! arrrrgh! Mr D. Evil prob doing his lil thing again..
however later, we went for lunch,and i realised i dint have money.. so i got up from the seat and went to get it from the nearby ATM.. i was battling if i should lead(and be victorious) or try again next time? however, if i skipped it this week, prob the next time i'd skip it (just because i wasn't ready), then prob the week after next i'd do the same, and leave out what God has in store for me.
so i kinda got a conviction when i went to draw money, and i realised i shouldn't, couldn't, and wouldn't want to miss out on God's plans, so i decided i should just try, and "kick satan in the ass".
rena supported me in co leading, and the band, consisting of ben, rena, justin, cindy and me, worked very well tog.. justin.. thanks for being so encouraging.. i've learnt alot from you.. see how you've grown!
i guess it was a timely lesson, and hey, i actually got to practice what i learnt earlier in the morn!
hallelujah! God IS goooooooood.
oh ya!
bumped my head bad... was putting my bass in ben's trunk, and then rena's streamers thingy fell out.. so i stupidly reached for it to put it properly and...
BAM!
the boot closed on me.. hehe BEN! grrr..
the left part of my face felt hot, and i couldnt control it for a while.. then came a dizzy spell..
wow.. first time got this kinda bump... rena said that she could feel the whole car shake when it came down on my cranium. lolz
but later everyone in the car prayed for me(ben rena liwei daren) in the carpark. i dunno why but i just laughed.. it WAS kinda funny really. but thru their prayer, and laying of hands, God began to heal..
eventually the dizziness went off and i felt much better... the face was better too..haha
had chili fish at waffle town.. but i think that could have been the cause of my diahorrea this morn.. decided not to go church in case i had to sit my bum on the bowl once every often. bah.
i hope to see more of what God has in store for me.. pray i get into a local uni..NUS? SMU? NTU? UNI-SIM? james cook uni? canberra uni? i dunno! else i may wanna do overseas... get some experience being really super duper independent.. hahas..
i'll just see how God leads.
"Lord thanks for sticking with me, even when i threw you aside. i wont do that again."
