spoke to dad this morn.. after i finally "woke" up..
woke up early due to a nightmare, and couldnt really sleep.. so i lay in bed until the sun came out.. eventually the weariness came and i was back to sleep.. woke again at 9, my heart beating very fast..

dreamt two times in a row that i had died??!! i wont state the dream in this blog cos its too personal. respect that please >_<. anyway, this blog's for me to reflect and sort myself out kaaaae?

omgoodness its a lil eerie..
spoke to dad abt it, and he says there's a part of me that hasn't let go.. he may be right i guess.. man.. I do miss her a lot.

IM WORKING ON IT LA D***IT! arrrgh.

so prob am i allowing Mr D.Evil to play around with that "poor-lil-sam-who's-oh-so-weak", allowing him to toy with me emotes, twirling me in his lil black pinky?

dang. i cant let that pass. Insecurities perhaps?

However two verses speak out:

Romans 8:31-32 …if God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since God did not spare even His own Son for us all, wont God, who gave up Christ, also give us everything else?

I will depend on Him to provide, my ministry, calling, my future, spouse, career, etc. this is a time of testing, and I will prevail.

Phil 4:13 for I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me the strength I need.

The verse above is proof of victory. Lord, I’ll trust you.

11:12 AM; yep, thanks Papa God for the new day. Y